I Miss You..

I miss the smile on your face

I miss the love you bestowed  me

I miss the relation we had..

I miss the sunset we saw together

I miss the midnight walk to the beach

I miss the dreams in which you came..

I miss the dance with you  in the rain

I miss the  kiss on my forehead

I miss the hug you  gave me..

I miss the messages  you  sent me

I miss the late night calls

I miss the fight we had together..

I miss the veg food which you love

I miss the cricket that you die for

I miss the long drives  with you..

I miss every small thing of yours

I  just miss you so much..!!

Dreams & Reality..

In my dreams, I am the happiest person on this earth,

But when I see this real world, I wonder what I have

In my dreams, I am the princess of my own world

But in reality, I am still searching for my identity

In my dreams I love you n you love me  too 

But in reality its just me n my love for you

In my dreams, I have so many people around me to care

But in reality, its just me n me for myself

In my dreams,  I have  so many colors in my life

But the in reality, its just black n white that I see

In my dreams,  I sing a song of happiness

But in reality, I have all sorrows around

In my dreams,  all my dreams have come true

But in reality, I am still confused with the one

In my dreams, I am matured enough to understand things

But in reality, people call me insane n immature

In my dreams, I fly in the sky like a bird

But in reality, I am walking on the road with no direction

 But the one thing that’s common in my dreams and reality is that

I am the same me..

Relationship.. !!

Relationship, this is the word which I am not able to understand yet.  Relationship; how does it work, has always been a big question for me many a times.

Heard people saying “give time, understand, compromise, adjust, trust, love, respect, empathize, and this is all how it works”.  But I have been trying hard to understand, compromised  many a times, trusted people, and kept aside my ego, still it not working at all sometimes.

People  say, the more you respect,  love others, n do good to others, its going to come back to you  n I  just wonder is it??  I have never understood this ratio proportion theory, bcoz the more I do good to people, the more I am becoming bad for them.  And who says any relations is selfless  except that  of the parents, every one excepts something  in return in this selfish world and  I too except n I don’t think its wrong on my part, how long you  can keep doing  good n always receive something bad coming back to you.

Many a times I have kept aside my ego to continue  the relationship , bcoz I have  always valued people  in my life more than  anything. But then  whats happening, people  just take me for granted n  they think  that if anything  happens next time, I am going to come back to them n being taken for a ride again . But I just want to  tell  them its not that I am  emotionally  weak that  I did it all the time, its  just I respect my relations , but maybe I was nothing  for them or the relation with me does not matter much to them so they always left it halfway.

It does not hurt when you have just a formal relation with someone, but when they are close , it does a lot . I am  a gal  who does not mingle with people so easily but once things works  out , I respect n share a good bonding,  give all my trust n  share all my secrets  but then  suddenly a wind blows n everything  gets over and  i am so clueless on how n why it all happened . Sometimes I just sit back n think over it , that is it all the time me whose  doing the  mistake n so all this happened or someone else can be the  reason this time. But then the very next moment people make me feel that yes I am at fault this time again. But now I really don’t want to comment anything on this bcoz I just can’t go n change anyone’s thinking about me. In a democratic country, India everyone has a right to express their views n feel whatever they wish to. 

Its been happening frequently  this time with  few people in my life,  the relationship which  I had for so long  for so many years n some of the new one  seems  like nothing is left there  n things are not going  in the  way it was before.  I tried but I guess some misunderstanding, lack of time or may be the priorities of people have changed as per the time. And I believe in one thing   “its not worth carrying   a relationship when it just getting one sided n you carrying the burden just for the sake of it.”

People   have sometimes said me that I behave so immature, childish, stupid, weird, impulsive n few other adjectives  which I  have recently got (that I don’t want to mention here), but to some extent I think there is  a fault on my part that I have given people a chance to take me for granted, bcoz when you give all your trust to someone, sometimes they just tend to make use of it n this  is the one biggest thing that  I have  learnt from some of my mistakes n I have no regrets for it bcoz in the end I have got something  to learn from it n every human does a mistake its not only me out here. I don’t care what people  think about me bcoz  they are not the  one who know me more than I do , they are not the  one who know whats  going with me , n what I feel any moment, so I m not seeking anyone’s  judgments about me, but yes they can always have their own thinking n their own perceptions. 

People saying  I am good or saying  I am bad is not going to  change me anyways so I guess they better understand bcoz they have  always been smarter than me . 

They   can think  that  I am being so rude n arrogant but I can’t help it bcoz that’s what I am feeling  rite now n I am  just expressing  it. N yes one thing I just love myself n this time I am really going to  take care of me, so you don’t have a next chance  to take me for a ride.

N I thank God that he has given me few people in my life who understands me and  know what I am n  yes I need not prove them anything bcoz they know it all.. :)

A look from the Window

    Window, it sees so many sights out there,

         It sees the strange world outside

      It sees different emotions & feelings

        And also the different colors of life

   It sees the new born baby coming to a family

         And also the funeral of an old man

 It sees the poor struggling for bread day n night

    And also the rich getting richer day by day

It sees the mother who just lost her son in the war
And also the family celebrating the joy of marriage

It sees the happy child knowing nothing but just love
 And also the man who’s just thinking how to win the race

It sees the unconditional love of a mother

And also the hatred in people killing each other

It sees different religions, caste and creed

And also the different people some like us n some unlike

 It sees the strange world outside of which we are a part of..

But I still Love U

I was always so good to you, but you made me feel unworthy

I always brought smile on your face, and you just made me cry

I always respected you for everything, and you just made me feel offended

I was always there to hold your hands, and you just made me feel lonely

I always understood you, but you never gave an attempt to do that

I always gave happiness to you, and you only gave sorrows

I always trusted you for everything, and you just betrayed

I always cried for you, and you just ignored my tears

I always listened when you said something, but you never gave attention

I always found time for you, and you just said you being busy with something

I always felt you are the one for me, and you made me an option

I always prayed for you, and you just left me unblessed

I always thought you are the best for me, and you proved me wrong

I always had a dream with you, and now you just broke those

I always loved you heartily, and you just pretended to love me

I made you my world, but  in yours I had no place

 I may not exist for you, and you may not remember my name in your life…

But I stil Love U

Life, so Unpredictable..

We think something for us, n it has something else to give

We make a plan n it just makes everything so directionless

We have a goal to achieve n it just takes away that goal

We think to take a right turn n suddenly it takes a left

We trust a relation, n it just betrays us the other moment

We make strangers our friend, n it just makes friends stranger

We make people happy around n it makes us lonely many a times

We are in our solitude n it just sends someone   to care for us

We just wish to celebrate, n it just takes away the reason

We are just so hopeless; n it brings the ray of hope the other moment

We have a dream n it gives something else to live for.

This is life, so Unpredictable..

Unconditional Love..

God is the one who has unconditional love for his creation

The other comes from the Mother; nothing can be compared to her love

She is the other name for God on the planet

She gives you a life to experience this beautiful world

Her love for the child can make her do anything

She just carries all the sorrows, worries, hurts but never complains

She never counts her sacrifices made to make her child happy

You can fool the whole world but not her

She just understands everything without a word spoken

She just has one law to give & never expects anything in return

You can never repay her the love she gives you

That is what makes her love so special, the unconditional love

Blessed are the people who have this gift of god

Respect her and her unconditional love..

                                                   

I am what I am..

I am what I am n I just love the way I am

God’s every creation  is special n I am one of them

He loves me so much n I just respect his love for me

I am a gal n I feel blessed for that

I am different in my own ways

I am unique n you will not find the other me

I am sweet, cute, crazy, stupid, insane n weird at times

But that’s what defines the complete me

I have a dream which no one understands

But people in my world knows what these dreams are for me

I have the power to express n I know I am always there for me to understand

I am not the one like you but I am happy the way I am

I respect  myself n so do I respect the people around me

I like you and every creation of god

If you like me be with me, else you have a choice

I am what I am n I just love the way I am..

The moments with you..

I remember the moments with you..

For the first time when you said me hi n my face lighted up with a smile

When you said me Sweetie Pie n made me feel so good

When you said me that you like me n I felt the most special gal on this earth

I remember the moments with you ..

When you asked do I want to take our relationship ahead n I felt so much of love for you

When you asked what corner of my heart have you touched

N I was speechless  bcoz you not just touched it but you took it away   

I remember the moments with you..

When we had a fight on pointless things n in d last you smiled over this

When you said you like teasing me bcoz you love to see those weird expressions on my face

When I was sad it was your voice which relieved me that you there for me

I remember the moments with you..

When I said I can manage things on my own n you felt bad

Bcoz you always wanted to be around me n care for me

When I shared  my secrets  with you which no one else  is aware of

I remember the moments with you..

When you came into my life the world seemed more beautiful

Every moment I just want to be with you

You became the world for me  n I  can’t  let  you to go

I remember the moments with you..

I know we have not yet met but still I feel you the one for me

Who just made everything around me worth living for it

We are miles away but yet you are so close to my heart.

I know I never said you all this before whenever you asked

But now that I express, I know you will be there to hold my hands

And I know you too remember the moments, some miles away with a smile on your face